I have been allotted one year’s time to decide what I will do that will define myself. In one year I am expected to know exactly what I want to do with my life. I know who I want to be but what that person will be doing has not yet been determined. It seems like every course in every college or university wants you to have certain subjects. Standards that I am quite certain I can’t live up to. There are always things ive wanted to do but I look at all these other people, billions of them. There are billions of people in our world so where do I get off thinking I could do something better than any one of them. I can barley organize my thoughts have decently.

I have been driving myself crazy trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I’m so lost in my own world right now it’s unbelievable. I’ve taken dozens upon dozens of tests, quizzes, personality matches to help get my foot in the door. But even if these quizzes came up with something for me I don’t want that to determine the course of my life. Like where am I supposed to go? I don’t think I can stay in Medicine Hat; this place gets to me in the worst way.

So basically I’m left with not knowing who I am, what I want to do or where to go. People always joke, oh being fifteen is soooo hard isn’t it? Like because were young we have no stress in our lives and no important choices to make. What evs, being I’m 15 with no rights in Canada thus far, I’m taking a freaking nap. Later.

Brittany [ 3:13 PM ] | 1 comments

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

I hate being 15. there are so many things I can't do.
I want to be sixteen so bad, not for my birthdays, I hate birthdays.
Not that I would be able to drive by my sixteenth birthday but I hate the fact I'm 15.
yeah yeah,

"enjoy these days I'm going to miss them, slow down, be young."

Yeah that's fine and I believe you however, I was at a military presentation
yesterday and I was actually quite interesting, I'm sure you all think that's a horrible
idea HOWEVER it is one I'm kicking around. But you have to be 16 to join the reserves.
And also I would really like a much music pre-paid credit card so I could
Buy things online, like the Rise Against concert tickets I would absolutely die to go to
or buy clothes online, seeing as that's where all the sweet ones are.
and yes I'm sure when I'm 16 I'm just going to be dying to be 18.
High school is going by so quickly it's absolutely terrifying!
I have very little ideas about what I want to do with the next 40 years of my life
and being 15 and having to choose that seems like a enormous, life altering decisions.
I just don't want to be one of those 50 somethings wondering what my life could have been.
I want to make it count but easier said than done. And when I'm 50 I know I'm going to wish I would have taken my time growing up but it feels like I'm being pushed out of my teen years. All I hope is that these are the years of my life, and not just some memory I wish I could throw away.

Here is high school for you
today a guy punched a girl in the face..
she punched him back.
LOL
And I also got the highest mark in the class on my social test
to bad half it was done for me hehe
=)

Brittany [ 2:22 PM ] | 2 comments

Monday, March 12, 2007

Holy mother of Mary.
day three of rugby.
how might you train for rugby you may ask?
we'll I will certainly tell you.
fir you run. then you run down a hill. then you run up the hill with stairs then you run back to where you started.
then after seeing as that was a walk in the park, you run around the gym until you want to throw up.
and seeing as we are still only at 4 o'clock we'll I'll be dammed if we don't do suicides or shuttle's if you'd rather.
seeing as we are all looking pretty exhausted our coach will graciously let us have a 2.5 min water break.
and then of course we do push ups, sit ups, fire man carries and the dreaded wheel barrel.
"oh well look at the time, we still have about ten minuets left don't we?"
With that being said we finish the practise with more suicides.
so at this point I really hope this season is worth it.
I going for a nap & I'm taking my socks off, look out.

Brittany [ 5:10 PM ] | 0 comments

Sunday, March 11, 2007

There is a time in everybody life where he or she has to question themselves.
what their motives are, their dreams and hopes.
a time when they have to ask themselves what they are fighting for.
And if they are not fighting, why not?
this moment may come late in life and earlier than may have wished.
but does it make a difference?
Ignorance is bliss isn't it?
Maybe I'm a victim of bad timing or a sinner for wanting what I do.
but i do not think my wants are completely unrealistic.
I'm only human
but it was said by the great Siddhartha Gautama that all suffering is caused from desire.
but what does he know right?
Maybe I'm morally corrupt.
Who is to say that what I want is the greatest, purist thing ever. certainly not Siddhartha Gautama, that ship has sailed and there is a new Titanic in town bb.

Brittany [ 4:51 PM ] | 1 comments

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Brittany [ 6:45 PM ] | 0 comments

Sup new blog?
Your probably going to be filled with tons of useless quizes and rants.
you'll learn to like it, trust me =)

Brittany [ 3:47 PM ] | 0 comments